Sunday, April 15, 2007 @10:44 PM
whatever.I dont really care anymore
Friends or acquaintance?
Does it still matters?
So what if you are nice? So what if you are always trying to go along with any decision made before hand. So what if you are always careful not to say hurtful words? So what if you feel hurt at times but still kept quiet?
IT DOES NOT MATTER AT ALL.
because at the end of the day, you will finally realised that people take you for granted with or without them knowing. And when you finally accept this reality, you will then realise how horrible it feels. You feel unappreaciated and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it beside sending a straight 10 sms to your bestfriend whom you think will understand and blogging an angry entry about it.
whatever okay. I dont give a damn about it anymore.
Labels: friends
Monday, April 09, 2007 @10:57 PM
Jolin concert last sat was quite eventful. It started with me being retarded and we ended up in the stadium 1.5 hours earlier. Then julia tan make me swear not to reveal her retardedness in the expense of our friendship. I think the highlight of the concert was this die-hard fan that sat near us. Besides the stunts and surprises that the concert promised, i think we spent like 40% of the time observing her and laughing at her. Okay we are so mean, sue us.
Ns robbed me of all my nice guy friends! In a week time they will all be gone! So now all of us can actually learn the importance of humour in our usually dull life. But that will probably have to wait till two weeks after we rested our pitiful soul that suffered years of tortures. Just like what rui said to anne:"i like you as a friend but sometimes you are irritating" I am not saying you guys are irritating okay, its just a quote. HAHA. really, you guys are irritating in a nice little way. LOL
And oh yes, i am really going to cut my hair. Get it straightened before i snip off like 50% of it. Don worry, its still going to be long. Its just a change of style. I need a change in my boring life.
Rui will be starting her school soon. seeing her getting all excited about school makes me happy too. When was the last time when we were really looking forward to school? I hope i have a chance to be like her, getting high on school and indulge in happy preparations for it. I had a feeling that all of us will learn to be more appreciative of school and teachers after working especially more so in our case after working as a teacher.
See, its an effort to keep my blog alive. Haha
Labels: friends, retarded
Friday, April 06, 2007 @1:22 AM
its nice to catch some inspirational movies once in a while instead of the usual comedies, love story or haunted scary (which i obviously wont be caught dead watching) movies.
Freedom of writers with wileen this afternoon had proven itself to be a good choice. For those out there who didnt had a chance to catch it, pls skip this entry lest i spoilt the show for you. If you are comtemplating whether to watch it, i would say go ahead and catch this really amazing movie.
After this movie it suddenly became so clear to me that whatever big problems that we THINK we have seems to be so insignificant instantly. Be it the issue of weight, friendship or difficult relationship and others endless problems that we make a big fuss, all these seems so small compared to the REAL issues out there, out in the real world.
The world suddenly became a much better place with us safe here free of issues that have been around since forever. We heard so much of them but never did experience any and i guess thats why they seems so unreal and so distance to us but yet these problems still exist and affecting the lifes of many others. Negatively.
I would say that you will probably be more appreciative for the people around you. Things that I took for granted in the past, be it my family members or friends--these people who stood by and took in dose of my endless rants and at times my stupid stubborness that got the better of me, i can never thank them enough. And so, this is a small but important section where i get to say a sincere thank you to those who matters.
ok, so they might not be there 24/7 to hear my groans and share my laughter and neither did they did big things or make big sacrifices.
They were simply-there. They said all the right things at the right time :
My family, the people who have to face me most of the time and had to tolerate stupid things that i did for the last 20 years,picking up the pieces i left behind and will have to tolerate me for another more 20 years down the road. The gift of my life starts here.
Jacy, the one who spelled out my pitfalls in this world and set her record to make things right. The comfort of knowing you are here is enough. Thanks for being a friend, a soulmate.
Clovers, the people who share the oldest joke and secrets with me. Going obstacles and proudly standing strong in our friendship and as sisters marching forward together, a strong belief is actually all that really matters.
Theresians, a group of silly people doing silly stuff that make life beautiful. They listen and are not quick to judge and i really really appreciate that. we travelled together through difficult times and together we built a beautiful building of our own known as trust.
My retarded clique, though really retarded at times and always getting on people nerves, they are really just ordinary people who maybe have a little more humour genes than others. Few understood their down-to-earth humour and advice that I so value.
life is beautiful because it has you :) yes, all of you.
Labels: friends
Monday, March 19, 2007 @11:53 AM
you know when theres a friendship issue its get highly complicated.
one of my resolution is to be more vocal, as in expresss how i feel but i realised that is the most difficult thing to do. Maybe to others its as simple as that but for some reason or another words of feelings are never easy for me.
Hurtful words coming from the mouth of others may not be intentioned but then again the only reason why it hurts so much is because its not said on purpose.
Friends are easy to find but they dont stay for long. Ironically, its those "true" friends that upset you. Maybe humans being are just selfish and dont understand that one is already enough. Maybe its just the way that each of us are destined to have only one single bestfriend and soulmate that truly understands you and stay with you for life, but because we are simply too greedy, we wanted more and so eventually we end up with a group of "bestfriends". Bestfriend is originally used to describe one single person that is closest to you, understand and know you like a book. So when theres more than one involved in the use of 'bestfriend' it tumbled and fell.
When it gets crowded in the friendship, when you feel that you are suffocating and even left out and drifted apart all we need is a helping hand to pull us back to the warmth and laughter that we once shared. When it all feels different, a smile of reassurance can give you a sense of importance. I guess it all boils down to the fact that we need to feel appreciated and needed.
on a lighter note to end, thanks to the retards and their never ending jokes and games. you people never fails to do wonders and of cos not forgetting jacy who's miles away.
Long awaited date with julia and ky tmr :)
Labels: friends, problem