Wednesday, April 01, 2009 @10:13 PM
I am lost.
I thought i know fairly well where i am heading and what i expected. But it seems that the more i try to understand myself, the more i am lost in the sea of
emotions that are of a foreign language to me. I no longer know how i feel and what i hope for anymore. I thought i was crystal clear but when things goes the way i least expected it to, i am trapped in the hole that i dug for myself.
Maybe i have just under-estimated what emotions can do to me.
Maybe i just refused to believe that you are capable of directing my feelings just like that.
It just seems so simple, just like that and i am caught off guard. Just like that, it was practically nothing and with nothing at all, you can turn my world upside down.
It doesn't even matter what i tried to convince myself, to convince myself of what- i have no idea now.