Wednesday, March 25, 2009 @11:27 PM
I think it's a good time to stop and give myself and my poor heart a break. After tiring it and failing to protect it from being hurt, what's left of it now is just a tiny wary heart that needs more than chocolate and sweets to put it in the right state again. I am hurt, in fact, hurt would be an understatement.
Contradicting how life never goes the way you want it to. Probably the world is just meant to be unfair. Right, maybe it's just me and the way that i kept running into the worst guy ever.
"I have a phobia of guys who have hard-to-handle ex-girlfriend, especially when they cant make up their mind and keep the ex-girlfriend out of the picture" I don't understand which part of this sentence is just so hard to comprehend.
The Buddhists have a saying that a heart is meant to be broken as that is how it learns to open up. Well, my heart has been broken often enough to have blown it wide apart. It has a little fence of barbed wire around it to keep trespassers out. I think it simple had enough of people crashing in, tramping around without due care and leaving a mess behind them.
After years of trying to be strong and picking myself up time after time, all i want now is to be not strong. Why didn't you realised that i am not the least brave at all? why cant you see that i am anything but strong?
I never thought love would be perfect but i didn't imagine it would be this flawed either.