Thursday, February 19, 2009 @11:40 PM
Yesterday was one of those days where i highly doubt i will ever survive in one complete piece. I probably woke up on the wrong side of the bed and the day kinda went the wrong way too.
I started off feeling a complete failure for not being able to be sensible enough to pay attention in lecture, it seems like i am physically there but my mind was occupied with some other stuffs. I literally had to drag myself to tuition and my students just have to decide that it is the day to misbehave. Then for no apparent cause, i started to really freak out about my driving test in March. It was one of those bad days when i just felt that i am not capable of doing anything right. At all.
I guess part of it came from the fact that i know i have been quite laid back on my studies and disappointed that i can't be responsible enough to know that i should do consistent work. Right, so i do deserve the stress that i will be facing soon with the couple of tests and the upcoming law assignment. I ought to start doing some serious reading ( school work, not some serial killer novel, mind you) soon.
Despite the day started off horrible and i ended up with a bad headache, i would say it was a good day after i heard a HUGE, SHOCKING, HEART-STOPPING news from a close friend.
I know this is probably the millionth time i am saying this, but i am truly happy for her. I am overwhelmed with happiness for her. Despite the shock (which i have yet to recover from) i am really proud of her. There's always a part of her that i saw myself - the part where both of us are so alike when it comes to facing uncertainties especially in human relationship and the failure to have confidence in ourselves at times. Yet now, i am truly in awe and full of admiration for her. She had done something that i would never ever dream of doing. There was something in her that i
couldn't recognise till i realised today that it's the courage to love, something that i probably lost along the way. Maybe under her grand influence, i might so something wild someday-like jump the
bungy jump maybe?
haha.
Oh well, Dear
bestfriend,
You have done something that's so amazing and no matter how it goes eventually, this will stay with you all your life and a part of you that no one can take away. No matter how it turns out, you know we are proud of you. No one is sure of what the future holds but you had tried in you own little way and that's what really matters. Someday we might resent you for all the time you are spending with him instead of with us but you know we will be quite happy and willing to retreat in silence.
Haha.
How often do you just thought you had a worst day and seconds later someone came along to brighten the day instantly and you changed your mind thinking that today is probably the best day ever? Not very often, that's how often.