Tuesday, February 17, 2009 @10:42 AM
For the past one week, i have been suffering from insomnia due to the latest Jodi Picoult novel - The pact. But anyway, it's such a emo and sad story plus a little bit of thriller hence the sleepless night.
I was talking to one of my girls on the topic of courage. The conclusion made was that i am a coward with zero courage hence the inability to love. I was sitting opposite_____listening to her and i thought wow, where in the world did she pick up this amount of courage to do this? I know i will never ever be able to do it. .
So tell me, will you ever have the courage to confess to a guy? okay, probably not openly but dropping a few hints here and there? I know i dont. I mean i know, it's the 21st century and modern women should be able to fight for our happiness but still it's easier said than done. I gotta admit, maybe it's a little self esteem involve i guess.
Okay, some people might disagree and say it's better to take control then to sit around waiting for something to happen. Right, i will probably end up old and hairless but it doesnt matter cos taking control doesnt mean you have to take matter in your own hands, i am in a way taking control of my life when i recognise that this is something which i am incapable of. Recognising yourself is another way of control. Right?
Just because you didn't speak the facts out didn't erase their existence. Silence was just a quieter way to die.I have learnt to live the way he does and that i realised made my life easier.