After a much intellectual talk with SOMEONE, i realized that sometimes you gotta take a step forward to know what's gonna happen in the future. I guess it's time i stop chaining myself with whatever happened in the past for no one deserve to live in fear forever and i deserve to give myself a second chance more than anyone else. It's only after i had finally put down this burden that i realized I had exhausted myself by trying to pretend everything is fine. Tired of Having to pretend that it is better that fine. Fine would be a failure that i have to eclipse.
Every second chance begins with the first step.
Yes, i am taking a step forward and no one can guarantee that it's not going to hurt. No one can be sure that it will turn out fine this time round. But we know we can at least try to make it better in this second chance. I choose to believe that we never know what we are capable of until we arrived at that given moment. Life is just a whole string of spots where we continued to surprise ourself. After so long, it is time i free myself.
I am freeing myself because he's selfish. I am freeing myself because he is way too assuming. I am freeing myself because he probably doesn't know what it is like to truly love someone. I am freeing myself because 18 months is long enough to pay for an error of judgement.
This is also dedicated to a particular reader out there.
We had our share of misery and its unfair for us to be living in agony and continuous fear for a mistake made by the other party. I am not saying we have to jump and plunge into another relationship immediately but surely we cannot condemn guys just because of one particular asshole right? So, just take a step at a time for now okay?
Haha, this is NOT an emo entry. To prove it, let me show you my new lover boy....
Don't you think its a real beauty? I had been hinting to my friends for ages way before my birthday. HAHA. opps. I even found the perfect solution to the budget issue. Like i said, you can gather 20 people and share. hahahaha. Okay enough dreaming. I can now stare at my new lover everyday.