Sunday, June 15, 2008 @12:03 AM
Why it is that when you want to make an effort to do something, you always end up feeling totally unappreciated and left out. Somehow the feelings cant hide themselves, they just show. At the end of the day, i just felt disappointment and anger and maybe the urge to scream it all out.
Maybe it was me who have not tried enough and maybe it was me who left you feeling neglected and all alone in the first place but cant you see that i am running away from my life so as to complete yours?
If you realized, my life doesnt revolve around you alone, there are many others who appreciate me much more and that doesnt even involve me having to sacrifice my life. And because i really do treat you as a friend, i am giving in again and again but you probably will never ever know how hurting some words can be, even though i know it was never meant to hurt intentionally.
I dont really have any obligation to take this from you and if being nice and tolerating means that i have to continue hiding my emotions and faking that it doesnt bother me at all, i think it's high time i re-assess my attitude and probably learn to be more assertive.It just takes a little more to reach my limit.
At times i hate the changes that life brings, and that's where we probably stand- we changed. But somehow, it seems that life is teaching us lesson that changes are really meant to make you grow and become a much better, stronger person. Maybe as time goes by, i will emerge a much braver person, probably by then i'll be a stranger in your eyes.
I couldnt tell you why she felt that way, she felt it everyday.I couldnt help her, i just watch her make the same mistakes again.Dont know where she belongs, where she belongs.She want to go gome but nobody's home, that's where she lies broken inside.There's no where to hide, to dry her eyes, broken inside.Somethings are meant to be changed in life, and for that i applaud all others that remain the same.