Saturday, December 22, 2007 @11:51 PM
Tonight the feeling of loneliness is over-whelming.
I wished and wished that you will call for the whole day but when the phone finally lights up with you name on it all i did was to stare and leave it directing you to my voicemail.
For the millionth time i wanted to picked up the phone and speed dial your number but something is stopping me.
I dont know whether its because Daddy and Mummy is away and i am home alone.
Or just the fact that i feel something is missing, a piece of my life lying somewhere.
Sometimes i feel that i dont even know you anymore.
I have no idea whats on your mind and neither do you know whats on mine.
Maybe its just us refusing to seek a clear answer, typically avoiding what we should have faced up long time ago.
I have no idea how long i can last, how much longer before i break away.
You will never understand how it make me feel, how insecure i am, how much i fear to ask out right, how i convinced myself not to think too much.
Freedom just seems too important to you, so much so that i cease in importance.
You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.Between the choice of having a world of freedom and me, will you even stop and hesitate for one split second?