Saturday, August 04, 2007 @6:46 PM
I feel like the biggest fool. How could i only realised it now?
All along i am only thinking myself and pushing all the blame to the other party. Now once did i stand in your shoes to think about your feelings. Of course you did have your reasons and stupid me only realises it now. How could i be so blind as to actually believe that you are only a big jerk? Why didnt i even seek to find an answer instead of making assumptions?
she cried and cursed him for being a jerk, a total disappointment in her life. She regretted the decision that she once made but yet at the same time still smile at all the fond memories. I finally understood the things that i dont understand. I want to pick up my phone, type your number and text a msg to you but what could i say? It seems like each and every day that past, we have grown further. i cant help it but think of all the possibilities say-- Can we ignore all the possible obstacles and the growing distance? Can love like everyone says, overcome everything?
Everyone say she's better off without him. Afterall what happiness did he manage to give her in their relationship? Look at her now! she is so much happier and enjoying her freedom! It beats having to stay with that jerk who knows nothing at all. she is worth better. There are many others who will come by and give her the happiness that she well-deserved.I am so....disappointed? why did i realise it only after so long? It should have occured to me that there must be a valid reason to why things turn out this way. Why didnt i put myself in the shoes of others? I feel so disgusted at the way i handled it.
Once, she thought of turning back. But of cos its easier said than done. How she wish it was like pressing the re-wind button on the remote control and everything turns back to the beginning. On the second thought, why would he want to turn back when there are many others who is so much better? Then she came to a conclusion that she will never ever wants him back anymore- afterall why bother? He is not even worth it. Now, she goes around k-poing his life when she knows she should stop. She is living in self-denial that its just a dumb process that ever stops. Who is she trying to fool? Its just her and many other silly girls who just cant snap out of their silly action.One more day, just one more day. Its better now that we are like strangers, we are afterall worlds apart now.