Tuesday, January 02, 2007 @12:55 AM
HAPPY NEW YEAR AND WELCOME 2007.
(haha, i might be a little day but who cares, its the thought that counts right?)
I seriously wanted to do this on the 31st but really really couldnt find the time to do it. oh well, its the same reflecting my 2006 now
2006 is one horrible year from the very first day i step into cjc knowing that its my A levels year and hence all excitement and fun thrown out of the window. Surprisingly with the preperation to apparently the most important exam in our entire life ( according to teachers that it is equivalent to ending our life in any case if we should fail to suceed), my life is not so dull afterall.
i would say my greatest achievement in year 2006 is to survive through it and hence ending the most horrible nightmare presented to me. I congratuate myself madly as well as those on the same boat as me for we indeed did ourselves proud to face the exams and finished the race (although i must add that the results releasing on march might say otherwise)
My greatest console is finding great friends who took part in the race with me and although we always seems to end up doing everything else except studying, we do sense the urgency didnt we ( more like we were freaking out at the last minute).
Thanks to Julia who make her days free after school even though she can conveniently go back to her comfortable house with the most distracting bed.
Thanks to jess for sacrificing her weekends and her most encouraging presence with me at the libary trying my utmost best to mug and preventing myself to be distracted by her entertainment.
Thanks to Jac who never fails to pick me up when i am at my laziest and who is ever so encouraging and patient with my constant nagging for it to end even though she has her own nightmare to deal with
of cos my nightmare certainly doesnt end as yet.
I must say the experience in the hospital is certainly a memorable one and never in my life will i want to try in again. An ulcer in my right eye near the pupil just weeks before the As landed me in the hospital for three days and i swear i will never ever neglect my eyes again. Horrible meals, scary nights and hateful medication may just be the very reason why the hospital is horrible but yet at the same time i find great comfort in knowing all those who cares and sent their regards.
And yes, i am still not quite done with the horrors in my life.
of cos those who knew will agree that 2006 is just not quite the greatest year for samantha mah. All in all i know i grew as a person gaining the experience from failures be it in relationships, studies or other aspect of my life. ( but i must say if given a choice i rather not go through all of those). i have cried, tear and thrown and probably did many many to vent my frustrations at the rough stage and i am glad to say that i have stepped out of the horror. I must admit i am truly ashame if i did embarassed myself in front of you. ( and yes julia, i will not start crying in front of you again, embarassing myself and scaring you with my big red eyes). Indeed, 2007 will be a fresh start.
and of cos the other things in my life that adds on to my horror.
Having two of your longest and bestfriends(more like sisters to me) ignoring each other cos of misunderstanding is not exactly a great experience but the from the start of the event to to end, it lasted only less than 2 weeks and so i conclude it was me, myself worrying too much. all ended well and so its happy ending for me.
and of cos it hurts just as bad knowing your the other bestfriend going through difficult times especially with annoying boyfriend doing stupid things to ruin what i see as the most beautiful relationship.
but of cos theres other beautiful things in life that make 2006 slightly better and easier.
My family who sometimes do silly crazy things (especially mummy) which make me love them more.
Clovers for their strong friendship and their high tolerance for me
Jacy for being the big sister to me still and protecting me from all evil (as she said)
My lovelies - Theresians! I am forever greatful to MOE for sending me to STC ( my last choice, haha) because you guys are simply wonderful. Special thanks to julia for making the new friendship with yr possible and thus ending 2006 in a great way.
And lastly the friends in cj and the netballers who is the only reason why i will miss cj and of cos my forever so funny and mean-in-a-hilarous-way teacher, Mr T.
2006 is a memorable year, besides the suffering i still manage to feel fun from the people around me. From the wonderful birthday i had to the planning of birthday surprises, i enjoyed the process of taking the surprise to doing the planning myself.
From all the laughter and tears, i have grown. Now, i am in the mist of learning to understand things in my life, accepting people leaving me and to find joy in experiencing life. For all we know, 2007 may end up worst than 2006 (No, please i beg you) but now i truly understand that life u is all about challenges and being alive is to keep up with the changes and constantly challenging obstacles thrown to you. My dear friends do join me in my journey to experience life and the torture it may brings for at the end of the day i will stand proudly smiling at the most precious gift in my life- my darling friends and family.
I thank all who stood by and believed in me.